everybody keeps talking about the 'long term' and how im just not thinking about it and that school is the best place for me right now but literally what they dont get is that I WONT LIVE LONG ENOUGH FOR IT TO MATTER. im literally fighting everyday. its always 'your attendance is so low do you want us to go to jail?' and never asking me if i need smt or like its just so annoying bc whenever i bring it upto camhs im just hti with stuff like ' thats why were doing dbt to make a life worth living!' and like dude thats so fucking useless when im not gonna even make it to the end of the course at this rate. im binging and purging again im cutting again im barely fucking sleeping i have nothing left nobody in my life can help or has helped yk i have all these people trying to 'help me' but all theyre fucking doing is sitting around watching me crash and die because they dont fuvking care. the social workers? what have they done? fucked the situation with my mom up even worse what have camhs done? absolutly fucking nothing. i hate dominik and im starting to hate charlotte because they just arent helping at all. what has school done? suspended me sent me home told mum and dad my attendance is so low told me off for my uniform told mum and dad all my issues they literally havent done anything good. nobody is helping me and i dont even know if i want help anymore i just want off this fucking earth i just want off please god just kill me